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rajaond` yaadva kao iktnaa jaanata hUM  , , , , , ,,     

maorI ek khanaI hO ‘Antt: pardSaI-' , ]sakI naaiyaka naayak sao pUCtI hO¸ " tuma rajaond` yaadva kao jaanato hao Æ"
naayak ka ]%tr hO¸ " iksaI kao pUra–pUra nahIM jaanaa jaa sakta."

Aaja jaba maOM ‘sadI ko sabasao baD,o Klanaayak yaa mahanaayak’ pr ilaKnao baOza hUM tao yah saaoca rha hUM ik Klanaayak kI BaUimaka saaih%ya maoM tao haotI hO magar ]sakI ApnaI ija,ndgaI maoM eosaa kuC BaI nahIM haota ik vah ‘Klanaayak’ hao . AamataOr pr haota yah hO ik dUsaraoM kI trh ]sakI ija,ndgaI maoM BaI tmaama laaoga ¸s~I–pu$Ya ¸ Aato hOM AaOr ]sako saaqa ]nako inataMt Apnao AnauBava haoto hOM . ]nhIM AnauBavaaoM ko AaQaar pr laaoga ]sao Apnao–Apnao ivaSaoYaNaaoM sao ivaBaUiYat krto hOM.

maOM rajaond` yaadva kao Klanaayak nahIM maana sakta. eosaa [sailae nahIM hO ik rajaond` yaadva mauJao bahut ‘maanato’ hOM. yaadva bahut laaogaaoM kao bahut maanato hOM. vah mauJao na BaI maanato haoto tao BaI maOM ]nako baaro maoM ApnaI raya nahIM badlata.

rajaond` yaadva ko saaqa maorI phlaI maulaakat AgalaI maulaakat ka saU~ nahIM bana sakI. baat sana\ 1985 kI hO ,mahInaa yaad nahIM‚ Saayad Ap`Ola yaa ma[-. maOM ]na idnaaoM [NTr naoSanala saoMTr fa^r baI ,eDº ejaUkoSana ¸ makravaTgaMja sao baI ,eDº krnao ko saaqa–saaqa ‘Aaja’ AKbaar ko kanapur kayaa-laya maoM nagar Tobala pr qaa. ‘Aaja ko kaya-k`ma’ maoM ek iva&iPt Cpnao ko ilae Aa[- ijasamaoM Aa[- ,Aa[- ,TI , kanapur ko rcanaa%mak laoKna kond` kI Aaor sao ek Aayaaojana ka ija,Ë qaa ijasamaoM rajaond` yaadva mau#ya va@ta qao. kaya-Ë`ma Agalao idna haonaa qaa AaOr ]sa idna maora saaPtaihk AvakaSa qaa., [sako baavaja,Ud maOMnao [sa kaya-k`ma kao kvar krnao kI ApnaI [cCa ja,aihr kI. ]saI idna baI ,eDº ko Ca~–Ca~aAaoM ka ivada[- samaaraoh kaya-Ë`ma BaI qaa ijasako saMcaalana kI ija,mmaodarI mauJapr qaI. daonaaoM kayaË`maaoM ko baIca ek GaNTo ka AMtrala qaa.

phlao Aa[- ,Aa[- ,TI , maoM rajaond` yaadva ka kaya-Ë`ma qaa ]sako baad [NTrnaoSanala saoNTr fa^r baI ,eD ejaUkoSana ka.daonaaoM laaokoSana ko baIca lagaBaga Aaz–naaO iklaaomaITr kI dUrI qaI ijasao maOM ApnaI rajadUt maaoTrsaayaikla sao AaQao GaNTo maoM tao tya kr hI sakta qaa., ]%saah daonaaoM kaya-Ë`maaoM ko ilae qaa.Aa[- ,Aa[- ,TI , maoM igairraja ikSaaor qao., yah ]nako ivaBaaga ka hI Aayaaojana qaa.]nasao maora AaOpcaairk pircaya tbasao qaa jaba vao kanapur ivaSvaivaValaya maoM AiQakarI qao.maOMnao ]naka ]pnyaasa ‘jaugalabaMdI’ pZ, rKa qaa AaOr ]sasao p`Baaivat huAa qaa AaOr Aaja BaI hUÐ., igairraja jaI sao k[- baar imalaa hUM ‚]nako daonaaoM kayaa-layaaoM maoM BaI AaOr kanapur maoM ]nako saBaI inavaasaaoM pr BaI. laoikna k[- baar imala laonao ko baad BaI ]nasao maoro irSto AaOpcaairk hI hOM., baD,a mauiSkla haota hO iksaI ‘kd’ kao Apnao samakxa laanaa. hr kao[- yah klaa nahIM jaanata‚ nahIM saIK sakta.Agar kao[- kd baD,a hO tao jaba tk vah Aapkao Apnao samakxa nahIM laata tba tk Aap ]sako saaqa AaOpcaairk hI rhto hOM. igairrajajaI nao hr AavaSyakta ko samaya maorI sahayata kI hO AaOr sahI sauJaava ide hOM laoikna [sako baavajaUd maOM yah davaa nahIM kr sakta ik ]nasao maorI inakTta hO. maorI inakTta rajaond` rava sao hO‚ AmarIk isaMh dIp sao hO‚ ip`yaMvad sao BaI hO , yao saBaI ]saI Sahr ko rcanaakar hOM AaOr mauJasao Avasqaa maoM baD,o BaI.

[na saBaI rcanaakaraoM maoM sao iksaI ko saaqa maora yaaranaa nahIM hO. qaaoD,a Kulaapna rajaond` rava ko saaqa ja,$r hO.Avasqaa ko AMtrala ko baavaja,Ud [na rcanaakaraoM ko saaqa kuC hd tk AnaaOpcaairk irSto hOM laoikna igairraja jaI ko saaqa irStaoM maoM ]nakI tmaama sahRdyata ko baad }Ymaa @yaaoM nahIM hO ¸ yah samaJanaa hma daonaaoM ko ilae kizna hO. yahaM tk ik rajaond` yaadva ko saaqa BaI jaao Avasqaa maoM [na sabasao tao baD,o hOM hI ¸ mauJasao 26 vaYa- baD,o hOM ¸ ]nako saaqa BaI maoro saMbaMQaaoM maoM hja,arha vaOcaairk ivaraoQa haonao ko baavajaUd eosaa Pyaara irSta hO jaao ek–dUsaro ko BaItr AgalaI maulaakat ka ja,j,baa jagaata hO.  mauJao Aa[- ,Aa[- ,TI , maoM kaya-Ëma kao kvar krnao ka kao[- AadoSa igairraja jaI sao nahIM imalaa qaa. AK,baar maoM Aa[- iva&iPt hI vah ja,iryaa banaI ik maOM Agalao idna kaya-Ë`ma sqala pr phuMca gayaa. vahaM phuMcanao pr maalaUma huAa ik kaya-Ë`ma paMca imanaT phlao K,%ma BaI hao gayaa. mauJao nahIM maalaUma ik yaadva nao ]sa kaya-k`ma maoM @yaa kha. mauJao ]nasao imalanaa qaa AaOr ek [NTrvyaU krnaa qaa.k[- laaogaaoM sao pUCnao pr maalaUma huAa ik jaao sajjana gaOlarI maoM KD,o pa[p pI rho hOM¸ vahI rajaond` yaadva hOM. fula pONT pr kuta- ,AaMKaoM pr Ganaa kalaa caSmaa‚ ek haqa maoM pa[p‚ gaOlarI kI baalaknaI kI dIvaar sao pIz lagaae AaOr dUsaro haqa sao ek CD,I ka sahara ilae hue ijasa AadmaI kao maOMnao doKa vah laaogaaoM Wara batae gae rajaond` yaadva qao.

maOMnao ]nasao kuC baatoM ]saI gaOlarI maoM KD,o–KD,o kI.]nhaoMnao ek TalaU–saa saaxaa%kar idyaa. mauJao lagaa ik ]nhaoMnao maora kao[- naaoiTsa BaI nahIM ilayaa.ifr BaI maOMnao saaocaa ik ek saMixaPt saaxaa%kar tao bana hI jaaegaa. maOM Aba [NTrnaoSanala saoNTr fa^r baI ,eDº ejaUkoSana pr phuMcanao kI jaldI maoM qaa. maaoTrsaayaikla sTa^T- krnao ko saaqa hI maOMnao isagaroT saulagaa laI qaI. Aa[- , Aa[- , TI , ko maona gaoT sao baahr inaklakr jaI ,TI , raoD pr calato hue Acaanak mauJao lagaa ik ha[vao pr jaao T/Oifk hO ]sao doKto hue isagaroT foMk donaa hI sahI haogaa.maOMnao isagaroT foMk dI.Aa[- ,Aa[- ,TI , sao klyaanapur rolavao sToSana kI dUrI paMca imanaT kI BaI nahIM hO , maOM satk-ta sao maaoTrsaayaikla calaa rha qaa. zIk klyaanapur rolavao Ë`a^isaMga sao baIsa maITr phlao ek yaja,dI maaoTrsaayaikla maoro saamanao Aakr [satrh mauD,I ik mauJao isaf-, ]sasao iBaD,naa hI yaad rha. maOM baIca saD,k pr jaba igara tao maora maaqaa saIQao saD,k sao Tkrayaa. mauJao [tnaa hI samaJa maoM Aayaa ik maoro isar sao Kr–Kr KUna bah rha hO jabaik ]sa jagah haqa lagaanao pr kuC BaI idK nahIM rha qaa. dao–tIna plaaoM ko baad mauJao haoSa nahIM rha. jahaM duGa-Tnaa hu[- qaI ]sako pasa hI klyaanapur rolavao Ëa^isaMga ko pICo qaanaa qaa. qaanao sao kuC isapahI saD,k pr Aa gae. panaI ko CIMTo Dalakr vah mauJao haoSa maoM laae AaOr mauJao KD,a ikyaa. jaba maOM haoSa maoM Aayaa tao maoro saamanao yaja,dI maaoTrsaayaikla savaar KD,a qaa. vah mauJasao ApnaI maaoTrsaayaikla maoM hue nauksaana kI Barpaa[- caahta qaa. maOMnao isaf-, [tnaa hI kha ik yamaraja banakr maorI h%yaa krnao ko Aamaada vyai@t kao maOM @yaa dUM Æ puilasavaalaaoM kao doKkr vah caupcaap calaa gayaa.

bahrhala¸ haoSa maoM Aanao pr jaba maOMnao ApnaI maaoTrsaayaikla doKI AaOr ]sako e@saIlarTor vaayar AaOr hoD laa[T\sa kao TUTa AaOr fUTa huAa payaa tao idla baurI trh sao xat–ivaxat hao gayaa.e@saIlaroTr vaayar kao $maala sao baaMQakr daMtaoM maoM fMsaae hue iksaI trh maOM maaoTrsaayaikla kao calaato hue [NTrnaoSanala saoNTr phuMcaa. caaoT kafI lagaI qaI. saaqa pZ,nao vaalaa ek laD,ka mauJao pasa ko @laIinak maoM lao gayaa.SarIr k[- jagah sao iCla gayaa qaa‚ marhma pT\TI hu[-.isar pr lagao BaItrI Gaava sao lalaaT pr daihnaI AaMK ko }pr kafI saUjana Aa ga[- qaI. ]sao kafI dor tk baf- sao dbaae rKnaa pD,a. ek sau[- lagaI. kuC pona iklar dvaaeM laonaI pD,IM.]sa idna ka saara kaya-Ë`ma ibagaD, jaanao sao maUD Kraba hao gayaa AaOr rajaond` yaadva ka saaxaa%kar jaao ]sa idna na ilaKa jaa saka vah ifr kBaI nahIM ilaKa gayaa ,

baat Aa[-–ga[- hao ga[-.AKbaar kI naaOkrI CaoD,kr maOM ekbaar ifr sao AQyaapna sao jauD,a AaOr AbaUQaabaI Aa gayaa. maUlat: khanaIkar qaa laoikna AbaUQaabaI Aanao pr ek lambao samaya ko ilae ilaKnaa BaI baMd hao gayaa. ek Avya@t – saa Baya qaa ik laoKna maoM ek vaa@ya BaI daeM–baaMe huAa tao [sa [slaa^imak duinayaa maoM salamaana $SdI yaa tsalaImaa nasarIna kI trh ftvaa panao sao baca nahIM sakUMgaa‚ bacaanao tao K,Or kao[- Aaegaa hI nahIM.k[- saala inakla gae. lagaBaga ek dSak. kuC zIk–zak ilaKa hI nahIM‚ ]na vaYaao-M maoM mana kI saarI CTpTahT maOMnao gaItaoM maoM Zala dI laoikna khIM na khIM yah lagata rha ik jaao ilaKnaa caahta hUM vah nahIM hao pa rha.ek baocaOnaI barabar banaI rhtI qaI ik @yaa maOM AbaUQaabaI maoM rhkr Kud kao hmaoSaa ko ilae naakara nahIM kr rhaÆ Acaanak ek idna ifr sao kqaa–laoKna kI Aaor jauD,a AaOr sabasao phlao ek ]pnyaasa ‘roKa ]f-, naaOlaiKyaa’ pUra ikyaa‚ ]sako baad tIna laMbaI khainayaa.ek gaitSaIlata ifr sao Aa ga[-. ]nhIM idnaaoM duba[- maoM AQyaapkaoM ko ilae ‘[na saiva-sa T/oinaMga’ ka ek saoimanaar huAa jaao lagaBaga dsa idnaaoM tk calaa.]sa saoimanaar maoM enaº saI ,[- ,Aar ,TI ,ko p`aofosar Da^0 ramajanma rama Samaa- sao pircaya huAa jaao GainaYzta maoM badlata gayaa ]nhaoMnao maora ]pnyaasa AaOr tInaaoM lambaI khainayaaM ]saI daOrana pZ,IM AaOr kha ik ga`IYmaavakaSa maoM jaba Baart Aa}M tao ]nasao ja,$r imalaUM. vao mauJao kuC pi~kaAaoM ko saMpadkaoM AaOr p`kaSakaoM sao imalavaaeMgao‚ ga`IYmaavakaSa maoM tba tk caar mahInao baakI qao , maOMnao ]sa daOrana ]pnyaasa AaOr ek khanaI ‘kla ko ilae’ ko saMpadk Da^0jayanaarayaNa AaOr dao khainayaaM ‘khanaI’ ko saMpadk EaIpt raya jaI kao Baoja dIM.

ga`IYmaavakaSa maoM jaba maOM p`aofosar ramajanma rama Samaa- sao imalaa AaOr ]nhoM batayaa ik maOMnao dao khainayaaM ‘khanaI’ kao dI hOM.vao mauJao ‘khanaI’ ko dF,tr lao gae. vahaM ]na idnaaoM ramaanaMd qao jaao ‘khanaI’ ko saMpadna ka kama doK rho qa. maOM ]nhoM naama sao jaanata qaa ,'saairka' maoM kBaI maOMnao ]nakI khanaI pZ,I qaI.]nhaoMnao mauJao batayaa ik maorI daonaaoM khainayaaM svaIkRt hOM AaOr ApnaI baat kI puiYT maoM ek svaIkRit–p~ BaI idyaa. ‘khanaI’ ka dF,tr ijasa galaI maoM qaa ]saI maoM ‘Axar p`kaSana’ BaI hO ijasasao ‘hMsa’ pi~ka ka p`kaSana haota hO¸ yah baat Samaa- jaI nao bata[-. ‘hMsa’ ka saMpadna rajaond` yaadva krto hOM¸ yah tao mauJao maalaUma qaa pr dF,tr ‘khanaI’ ko dF,tr ko pasa hO¸ yah nahIM maalaUma qaa Samaa- jaI ko saaqa maOM phlaI baar ‘hMsa’ ko dF,tr maoM gayaa. Samaa-jaI nao yaadva jaI sao jaba maora pircaya krayaa tao maOMnao ]nhoM sana\ 1985 maoM kanapur maoM hu[- ApnaI maulaakat kI yaad idlaa[- laoikna ]nhoM ]sakI kao[- yaad nahIM qaI. ja,aihr hO ik vah maulaakat ]nako ilahaja, sao yaad rhnao laayak hu[- BaI nahIM qaI.

[sa dUsarI maulaakat maoM jaao ik yaadvajaI ko ilae phlaI hI qaI ¸]nhaoMnao mauJasao pUCa¸ “Aap @yaa ilaKto hOM Æ” ]nako p`Sna ko pUra haonao ko phlao yaa baad maoM baD,o hI sahja ZMga sao jaao p`Sna maOMnao ]nasao ikyaa vah ]nhoM caaOMka gayaa¸ “yaadva jaI¸ maOM Aapkao baIsa saala sao pZ, rha hUM , , ,maOMnao Aapsao kBaI nahIM pUCa ik Aap @yaa ilaKto hOM , , ,Aap mauJao kovala baIsa imanaT pZ,oM , , ,jaana jaaeMgao ik maOM @yaa ilaKta hUM , , , pZ,oMgao mauJao Æ” maOMnao ApnaI ‘dao AaOrtoM’ khanaI kI ek faoTaoka^pI ]nhoM dI. maulaakat saMixaPt qaI‚ magar yah phlaI maulaakat jaOsaI nahIM qaI.[sa saMixaPt maulaakat maoM ]nhaoMnao maora ‘naaoiTsa' ilayaa khanaI ]nhoM dokr maOM Samaa-jaI ko saaqa ‘hMsa’ kayaa-laya sao baahr Aa gayaa.Samaa-jaI kao Qanyavaad idyaa ik ]nhaoMnao ek AcCI maulaakat kra[-.Aba maoro ilae idllaI maoM iksaI sao imalanao ko ilae kao[- bahanaa nahIM qaa. kao[- khanaI pasa haotI tao ]sao donao ko bahanao hI maulaakat haotI. maOM kanapur calaa Aayaa. dao maah kI ]na CuiT\TyaaoM maoM kanapur maoM kovala rajaond` rava sao hI imalaa. kanapur ko baahr jaao maulaakat ]llaoKnaIya rhI vah Da^0 jayanaarayaNa sao bahra[ca maoM hu[- ,]nhaoMnao kha ik ‘dao AaOrtMo’ ‘kla ko ilae’ maoM Capnaa caahoMgao , maOMnao ]nhoM batayaa ik rajaond` yaadva kao BaI yah khanaI dI hO‚ ]naka ja,vaaba qaa¸ “yaid yaadva khanaI kao CapoM tao [sao ‘hMsa’ maoM hI Cpnao dao.vahaM Cpkr khanaI cacaa- ka kond` banaogaI yaid vao nahIM CapoMgao tao maOM ‘kla ko ilae’ maoM CapUMgaa , , ,” bahut kma laaoga SauBaicantk haoto hOM. Da^0 jayanaarayaNa maoro SauBaicantk hOM.

dao maah baad jaba AvakaSa kI samaaiPt pr maOM vaapsaI maoM idllaI phuMcakr ‘hMsa’ kayaa-laya phuMcaa AaOr drvaaja,o ko saamanao phlaI maoja, ko pICo kusaI- pr baOzI maihlaa sao pUCa ¸ “imasTr yaadva hOM Æ” vah kuC khtIM [sasao phlao hI jaao Aavaaja, maoro kanaaoM tk phuMcaI vah rajaond` yaadva kI qaI ¸ “ AaAao¸ AaAao kRYNa ibaharI , , ,tumharI khanaI ka Anaa]MsamaoNT Aaja hI gayaa hO , , ,” maOM caaOMka. yaadva kayaa-laya ko phlao kmaro sao knao@ToD dUsaro kmaro maoM qao.]nako baOznao kI jagah sao maOM ipClaI maulaakat maoM hI piricat hao gayaa qaa. vahaM sao iksaI AagaMtuk kao doK panao ka savaala hI nahIM hO. ifr kao[- kOsao iksaI kI ]pisqait kao ApnaI kusaI- pr baOzo–baOzo mahsaUsa kr sakta hO yaa iksaI kI Aavaaja, kao isaf- ek baar saunakr hI ]sako vyai@t%va kao turMt Apnao jaohna maoM ]tar sakta hO. @yaa Aavaaja, kI f`I@vaoMsaI iksaI ko idmaagaI kmPyaUTr maoM [sa kdr fID hao saktI hOÆ maOM ]nako kmaro kI Aaor baZ,a ,'hMsa' maoM Aaja tao maOM sauEaI vaInaa ]inayaala¸ ima~ hairsa¸ Pyaaro ikSana¸ Aa%maIya dugaa- p`saad AaOr Baa[- gaaOrInaaqa jaao yaadva ko SabdaoM maoM ‘AMitka’ ko saMpadna ko hr AMk ko saaqa k`aMitkarI lahja,a Apnaae jaa rho hO¸ saBaI ko saaqa maoro bahut AcCo irSto hOM , laoikna ]sa idna tao maOM ijasao ijatnaa kuC jaanata qaa ¸ vah yaadva hI qao  , ]nako kmaro maoM Gausaa tao ifr ]nakI hI Aavaaja, ¸ “ tumharI khanaI ka Anaa]MsamaoNT Aaja hI gayaa hO , , , ,ek lambaI khanaI raokkr tumharI khanaI Cap rha hUM , , , ,baOzao , , ,”

maOMnao ]nasao haqa imalaayaa. maOM yaadva ko pOr nahIM CUta. laaoga CUto hOM. pOr maOM BaI k[- laaogaaoM ko CUta hUM.  eosaa krnao maoM kao[- baura[- BaI nahIM hO.irSto bananao ka ek xaNa haota hO jaao tya krta hO ik saamanao vaalao ko saaqa Aapka @yaa kd tya hao rha hO. yaadva nao ApnaI ]sa maulaakat maoM mauJao Kud sao [sa trh imalavaayaa ik ]nakI Aaor maoro haqa ]nako haqaaoM kI trf hI baZ, sakto qao.Eawa kI tulanaa maoM Aa%maIyata ka dayara baD,a haota hO.

]nhaoMnao Aagao jaao kha ]sasao maOM qaaoD,I dor ko ilae Asaamaanya huAa¸ “ bahut idnaaoM sao jaUto nahIM Kayaa  , , , ,jaUto Kanao ka mana kr rha hO , , ,[sailae tumharI khanaI Cap rha hUM." maOM caup hI rha , mauJao kuC ATpTa BaI lagaa ik yah @yaa baat hu[- .
]nhaoMnao Aagao kha¸ “ kRYNa ibaharI ‘dao AaOrtoM’ bahut ivasfaoTk khanaI hO , , ,magar maOM [sao CapUMgaa , , , ,”  khanaI ivasfaoTk hO¸yah maOM BaI jaanata qaa magar ‘hMsa’ maoM Cpnao ko baad vah maorI phcaana bana jaaegaI ¸ [saka Anaumaana nahIM qaa. ]sa idna ‘hMsa’ kayaa-laya maoM hI Kanaa Kayaa AaOr dugaa- nao caaOMkto hue ibanaa dUQa kI caaya k[- baar iplaa[-.panaI ko k[- igalaasa magar saado. iÍja sao nahIM. vah idna AaOr Aaja ka idna ‘hMsa’ maorI caaya AaOr maora panaI jaanata hO. ‘hMsa’ kayaa-laya phuMcakr kBaI eosaa huAa hI nahIM ik maOMnao Kanaa baahr Kayaa hao. kBaI–kBaI tao maOMnao vahI Kanaa Kayaa jaao Gar sao ikSana banaakr laayaa qaa. ‘hMsa’sao jauD,a hr vyai@t jaao Aa%maIyata mauJao dota hO vah iksaI AaOr AK,baar AaOr pi~ka ko dF,tr maoM khIM AaOr kBaI nasaIba nahIM hu[-. ‘hMsa’ ka dF,tr mauJao Gar lagata hO jahaM AadmaI AnaaOpcaairk ZMga sao rhta hO.jaba BaI phuMcaa iksaI saMkaoca sao gauja,rnaa nahIM pD,a.

ihndustana maoM bahut – sao saMpadkaoM sao imalaa hUM laoikna Da^0 jayanaarayaNa AaOr yaadva ko Alaavaa kao[- BaI eosaa nahIM imalaa ijasako saaqa Ct – faD, zhako lagaa sakUM. saba [tnao Aa%makoind`t imalao ik ]nako saamanao SaalaInata AaoZ,o baOznaa maja,baUrI hao ga[- yaa ifr vao iksaI dbaava sao ga`st lagao. maOMnao ek baar yaadva sao pUCa BaI¸ “ dUsarI pi~kaAaoM ko dF,traoM maoM [tnaa dmaGaaoMTU AaOr ]baa} vaatavarNa @yaaoM haota hO , , , ,ek caaya ko Pyaalao sao AiQak ka va@,t gauja,arnaa BaI mauiSkla haota hO , , , maOM eosao laaogaaoM ko pasa dor tk baOz BaI nahIM sakta Æ”
“kRYNa ibaharI , , ,tuma yah bataAao ik maailak, AaOr naaOkr maoM fk,- hO yaa nahIM , , ,bahut–saI pi~kaAaoM ko saMpadk naaOkr hOM , , ,vahaM Kulaapna kOsao hao sakta hO , , ,Æ”
mauJao ]nakI baat sahI maalaUma haotI hO. ApnaI caaOhd\dI ApnaI hI haotI hO., yaadva kI caaOhd\dI ‘Axar p`kaSana’ hO. ]sako BaItr kuC BaI hao sakta hO.

maOMnao Da^0 jayanaarayaNa kao batayaa tao vao bahut KuSa hue.Samaa-jaI kao BaI jaanakarI dI ik ‘hMsa’ ko Agalao AMk maoM khanaI ka Anaa]MsamaoNT Aa rha hO. @yaa ivaica~ saMyaaoga banaa ik maorI tInaaoM khainayaaM ]na pi~kaAaoM maoM nahIM CpIM jahaM vao phlao svaIkRt hu[- qaIM. ‘khanaI’ ko saMpadk EaI EaIpt raya ka inaQana huAa AaOr pi~ka hI baMd hao ga[-. ‘kla ko ilae’ ko saMpadk Da^0 jayanaarayaNa nao svaocCa sao caaha ik ‘dao AaOrtoM’¸ ‘hMsa’ maoM hI Cpo.A@TUbar 1995 maoM khanaI p`kaiSat hu[-.]sako baad jaao huAa vah saaihi%yak duinayaa ko laaoga jaanato hOM. maoro pasa ihndI saaih%ya ko idggajaaoM ko p~ hOM‚ ijanhaoMnao ‘khanaI’ kao khanaI ko xao~ maoM nayaa maaoD, batayaa hO‚ laoikna vahIM [sa baat pr AaScaya- BaI hO ik ]na p~aoM kao ilaKnao vaalao iksaI BaI kd\davar AaOr naamavar saaih%yakar nao maorI ]sa khanaI ka yaa ]sako baad p`kaiSat khainayaaoM maoM sao iksaI ek ka BaI khIM ]llaoK tk nahIM ikyaa.

jabaik yao saBaI mauKaOTaQaarI ‘hMsa’ pZ,to hOM . ]sa khanaI kao CaoD, BaI dUM tao ]sako baad BaI maOMnao lagaBaga saaO khainayaaM ilaKI AaOr vao ihndustana kI p`itiYzt pi~kaAaoM AaOr AKbaar maoM p`kaiSat hu[- hOM AaOr yao khainayaaM kma Asardar BaI nahIM rhIM laoikna [na pi~kaAaoM AaOr AK,baaraoM kao mauF,t panao vaalao ‘saaih%yakaraoMM’ nao maoro baaro maoM ek pMi@t BaI khIM nahIM ilaKa . @yaa yah AaScaya-janak nahIM hO ik ihndI ko vairYz saaih%yakar ApnaI kuisa-yaaoM ko hr pae kao Baunaanao kI kaoiSaSa maoM prvatI- laoKkaoM ka naama laonao sao ktranao lagao hOM. Apnao Aist%va ko Aagao iksaI dUsaro kI phcaana kao kao[- p`maaNa–p~ donao sao jaba saaih%yakar Drnao lagaoM tao ifr saaih%ya pr @yaa cacaa- haogaI Æ samaya sao baD,a kao[- samaIxak na huAa AaOr na kBaI haogaa , rcanaa kalajayaI haogaI tao ijaegaI varnaa kaoraimana ko [Mjao@Sana ]sao caar saaMsaoM BaI nahIM do paeMgao ,, ,Baart BaarWaja ¸ mahoSa dp-Na ¸ AMSaumaana Sau@la ¸ pUjaa EaIvaastva AaOr hotu BaarWaja ko Alaavaa iksaI AaOr nao maorI khainayaaoM pr cacaa- nahIM kI. Agar iksaI AaOr nao kI hO tao maOM nahIM jaanata.baat iksaI dUsarI Aaor jaa rhI hO , , ,

maOMnao kuC laaogaaoM Wara yaadva pr lagaae Aaraop pZ,o hOM ik yaadva Apnao cahotaoM kao Capto hOM. yaa yah ik yaadva nao na[- pIZ,I ko bahut sao laoKkaoM kao barbaad kr idyaa.maOM khnaa caahUMgaa ik yao Aaraop inaraQaar hOM ,yaadva nao nayao sao nayao khanaIkaraoM kao Capa h. kBaI–kBaI tao iksaI rcanaakar kI phlaI hI khanaI ‘hMsa’ maoM CpI hO. yah Alaga baat hO ik ‘hMsa’ maoM ApnaI phlaI khanaI Cpto hI rcanaakar svayaM maoM [tnaa baD,a AaOr [tnaa badidmaaga hao gayaa ik vah Kud barbaad hao gayaa.rcanaakar svayaM banato AaOr ibagaD,to hOM. ]nhoM na tao kao[- banaanao kI xamata rKta hO AaOr na ibagaaD,nao kI klaa ]sako pasa haotI hO.jahaM tk cahotaoM kao Capnao kI baat hO tao maoro saamanao hI k[- baD,o AaOr sqaaipt laoKkaoM kI rcanaaeM ]nhaoMnao ApnaI spYT raya ko saaqa vaapsa kI hOM. yaa faona pr ]nhoM saaf kha hO ik khanaI kmaja,aor hO.

maorI k[- khainayaaM ]nhaoMnao nahIM p`kaiSat kIM. ]na khainayaaoM pr jaao iTPpNaI ]nhaoMnao kI ]na pr lambaI bahsa BaI hu[- hO laoikna [na AsvaIkRityaaoM tqaa tmaama vaOcaairk isqaityaaoM maoM AapsaI AsvaIkRityaaoM ko baad BaI hmaaro saMbaMQaaoM kI }Ymaa inarntr baZ,tI hI rhI hO. kula Ch khainayaaM hI maorI ‘hMsa’ maoM p`kaiSat hu[- hOM. tIna lambaI khainayaaM [na iTPpiNayaaoM ‘khanaI AcCI hO ‘ ¸ ‘khanaI ja,ld donaI hO’ ko baad BaI ‘hMsa’ maoM dao–tIna saala tk pD,I rhIM AaOr tba maOMnao ]nhoM p`kaSana ko ilae Anya~ Baojaa. inaiScat$p sao Agar vao ‘hMsa' maoM CptIM tao ]nakI cacaa- ka flak baD,a haota halaaMik¸ khanaI , , ,khanaI haotI hO‚ ]saka Apnaa imajaaja, haota hO. hao sakta hO ik vao ‘hMsa’ ko imaja,aja sao maola na KatI rhI haoM , , ,

khanaIkar kao ]na pi~kaAaoM ka imajaaja, BaI jaananaa caaihe ijanamaoM vao ApnaI khanaI p`kaSana ko ilae Baojato hO. gaIta ka BaaYya ‘hMsa’ maoM yaadva ko rhto tao nahIM hI Cpogaa.

maOM lambaI khainayaaM ilaKta hUM‚ phlao Ta[p ra[Tr pr ilaKta qaa.tba kaga,ja, ka ijatnaa BaI ihssaa ilaKnao ko kama Aa sakta qaa ]saka ]pyaaoga kr laota qaa. haqa sao eDja,sT krko naIcao jahaM tk kaga,ja pr Ta[p hao sakta qaa vahaM tk Ta[p krta qaa. ]na khainayaaoM kao pZ,nao ko baad yaadva ko idmaaga maoM ek baat khIM gahro baOz ga[- hO ik maOM caavala pr gaIta ilaKta hUM.jabaik Aba ipClao Aaz vaYaao-M sao vao kmPyaUTr pr ilaKI hu[- maorI khainayaaoM ka ip`MT Aa]T pZ, rho hOM . ifr BaI Aaraop vahI hO ibanaa yah gaMBaIrta sao doKo ik kMPyaUTr ek inaiScat haiSayaa tao CaoD,ta hI hO. ]naka khnaa hO ik tuma kaga,ja, pr khIM jagah CaoD,to BaI hao Æ maOM batata hUM ik Aap gauja,ro ja,maanao kI baat kr rho hOM ‚Ta[pra[Tr pr ilaKnaa tao maOMnao Aaz vaYa- phlao CaoD, idyaa‚ laoikna ]nhoM yaad vahI kRYNaibaharI hO jaao Ta[p ra[Tr pr ilaKta qaa , , ,]nhaoMnao tIna–caar vaYa- phlao ek baar mauJasao kha ¸ “tumharo p~ bahut lambao haoto hOM , , ,” maoro bahut–sao p~ ‘hMsa’ maoM Cpo hOM laoikna ]sa idna ko baad maOMnao ‘hMsa’ kao ek p~ nahIM ilaKa. dao–caar idna phlao yaadva nao mauJasao faona pr kha ik yah BaI kao[- baat hu[- Æ p~ ilaKao , , ,baMd mat krao p~ ilaKnaa , , , ,

maOM Apnao pirvaar maoM ipClao ek dSak ko }pr sao mauiKyaa kI hOisayat rKta hUM. pirvaar maoM maaM ko Alaavaa dao CaoTo Baa[- AaOr dao CaoTI bahnaaoM kao ek saMrxak kI dRiYT sao doKnaa maorI ija,mmaodairyaaoM maoM Saaimala rha hO. yaadva kao kBaI–kBaI Saayad eosaa BaI lagaa hO ik maOM Apnao Gar ko sadsyaaoM kao prjaIvaI banaa rha hUM‚ yahaM tk ik CaoTI bahna ko ivavaah ko ilae sauyaaogya var kI tlaaSa maoM mauJao proSaana doKkr ]nhaoMnao dao vaYa- phlao ApnaI raya dI ik ]sao ApnaI SaadI Kud krnao dao. maOM ]nakI baat sao sahmat qaa‚ sahmat hUM. SaadI sabakao Kud krnaI caaihe. sabakao eosaa krnao ka AiQakar BaI hO . laoikna tba ¸ jaba vah duinayaa maoM yaa tao Akolaa hao yaa ifr iksaI ko p`it ja,vaabadoh na hao . yaadva nao mauJao ApnaI baoTI rcanaa yaadva ko ivavaah ko inaima%t Cpa vah inamaM~Na–p~ BaI idKayaa jaao bahut saada–saa qaa. SaadI ko ivavarNa BaI batae ik ivavaah BaI bahut saadgaI sao huAa‚ mauJao AcCa lagaa. maOM saadgaI ko iK,laaf nahIM hUM‚ kBaI qaa BaI nahIM AaOr na pirvaar kI doK–Baala krto hue maoro pasa [tnaa pOsaa hI qaa ik maOM ‘dhoja’ do saknao kI halat maoM qaa. jaao maorI jaIvana–SaOlaI jaanato hOM ¸ vao yah BaI jaanato hOM ik maOM pOsao ka duSmana hUM. maOMnao yaadva sao kha ¸ “ AnaIta¸ maorI baoTI ko samaana tao hO laoikna vah maorI baoTI nahIM hO‚ vah maoro Akolao kI bahna BaI nahIM hO‚ ]sako dao Baa[- AaOr BaI hOM , , ,yaad rKoM ik vao laoKk AaOr klaakar BaI nahIM hOM . vao ijasa samaaja maoM rhto hOM ]samao vah p`gaitSaIlata nahIM hO ijasaka ]pyaaoga krto hue Aapnao phlao AntrjaatIya ivavaah ikyaa AaOr Aba ApnaI baoTI kao krnao idyaa , , ,maoro ilae [sa maamalao maoM pirvaar kao iD@ToT krnaa kizna haogaa , , ,maora pirvaar jahaM rhta hO ]sa samaaja maoM pirvat-na samaud` kI BaaOgaaoilak isqaityaaoM maoM haoto pirvat-naaoM kI trh haota hO , , , , , ,QaIro bahut QaIro , , ,”

Saayad yaadva nao maorI pairvaairk p`itbawta AaOr saamaaijak maja,baUrI ko ]sa dayaro kao samaJa ilayaa ijasamaoM Apnao [d-—igad- maOM kt[- nahIM qaa. laaoga qao‚ Apnao laaoga. jaao maorI iksaI BaI p`gaitkamaI saaoca ko hmaoSaa iKlaaf rho . vaOcaairk str pr maoro pirvaar ko saBaI sadsya maoro iKlaaf hOM‚ tao @yaa k$MÆ ]nhoM CaoD,
dUM Æ maOM eosaa nahIM kr sakta. maOM maanata hUM ik yaadva nao daohrI ija,ndgaI nahIM jaI. yaid jaI hao tao maOM ]sa pxa kao kt[- nahIM jaanata. maOM tao yahI jaanata hUM ik ]nhaoMnao jaao caaha vah ikyaa.jaOsaa caaha vaOsaa ijayaa. eosaa krnao maoM inaiScat $p sao saMtaoYa imalata hO. kBaI–kBaI Aap ija,ndgaI ko saaqa Kolanao lagato hOM AaOr Kola ka pirNaama hmaoSaa Aapko hk, maoM haota jaata hO laoikna yah sabako saaqa nahIM haota.yaadva ija,ndgaI ko saaqa Kolato rho hOM . baccana AaOr AmaRta p`Itma nao BaI yahI ikyaa hO. ek bargad bana jaanao ko baad tao yah saba saMBava hO laoikna ]sasao phlao [sako ja,aoiKma bahut hOM . jahaM tk maora maamalaa hO maOMnao BaI jaao caaha vah ikyaa laoikna jahaM lagaa ik kuC AaMKoM maorI Aaor kovala Apnaa vaja,Ud doKto hue AaSaaBarI inagaahaoM sao doK rhI hOM tao maOMnao Apnao vat-maana AaOr Apnao sapnaaoM kao dF,na kr idyaa. kBaI–kBaI tao ]na AaMKaoM maoM inarMkuSata qaI ‚ magar @yaa k$M ¸ vao AaMKoM ApnaaoM kI qaIM . AaOr¸ maOM bargad BaI nahIM hUM , haota BaI tao Saayad vaOsaa kr panaa maoro ilae mauiSkla haota .

maOM maanata hUM ik hr iksaI ka vyai@tgat jaIvana ]saka inataMt Apnaa hO . yaadva AaOr mannaUjaI ko maamalao ]nako Apnao hOM. na tao laaogaaoM kao ]namaoM Éica laonaI caaihe AaOr na ‘[nhoM’ Apnao maamalao piblak maoM laanao caaihe ,laoikna daonaaoM nao yah ga,latI kI hO . maOMnao mannaUjaI kao [sa saala 2003 maoM 31 jaulaa[- kao ‘p`omacaMd jayaMtI’ pr phlaI baar doKa.ek baar iksaI pi~ka maoM kuC }la–jalaUla pZ,nao ko baad maOMnao faona pr yaadva sao kha¸
“PlaIja,¸yah saba baMd haonaa caaihe , , ,” ]nhaoMnao vaayada ikyaa ik Aagao eosaa nahIM haogaa‚ mauJao nahIM maalaUma ik yaadva kba tk Apnao vaayado pr kayama rhoMgao Æ

1999 kI baat hO‚ maOM ApnaI CuiT\TyaaoM maoM idllaI maoM jahaM ipClao 9 vaYaao-M sao $kta rha qaa¸]sa pirvaar maoM ]saI tarIK kao SaadI qaI .SaadI ko ilae kao[- gaosT–ha]sa ilayaa gayaa qaa.faona sao pta calaa ik Gar pr tao ]sa samaya kao[- haogaa hI nahIM . Flaa[T BaI rat ko dao bajao idllaI phuMca rhI qaI. baad maoM pta calaa ik Flaa[T saIQao idllaI na jaakr baOMgalaaOr jaaegaI AaOr vahaM sao idllaI saubah paMca bajao phuMcaogaI ‚yah samaya maoro ilae AnaukUla qaa. maOMnao yaadva kao faona ikyaa ik @yaa maOM eyarpaoT- sao saIQao ]nako Gar Aa sakta hUM Æ ]naka javaaba qaa ¸ “ ibanaa saMkaoca , , ,”

vah Flaa^[T baOMgalaaOr hI nahIM ga[- ‚ vahaM sao maumba[- AaOr tba idllaI. eyarËaFT BaI badlanaa pD,a. T/aMija,T BaI rha .tIna GaNTaoM kI yaa~a pMd`h GaNTaoM kI hao ga[- . yaa~a tklaIfdoh hao ga[- . vah [tvaar qaa‚ jaba maOM yaadva ko FlaOT pr phuMcaa¸ vao saao rho qao‚ Da^@TraoM nao ]nhoM saubah vyaayaama ko baad Aarama kI salaah dI hO ¸yah mauJao maalaUma nahIM qaa. KO,r¸ maOMnao ]nhoM jagaayaa nahIM. ikSana nao maorI doK–Baala kI. saaokr ]znao ko baad yaadva nao maorI yaa~a ka na kovala pUra ivavarNa saunaa bailk yah BaI jaanaa ik ]nako FlaOT maoM mauJao kao[- proSaanaI tao nahIM hu[-. krIba sao ]nhoM doKnao ka yah phlaa maaOka qaa .

daophr ko baad vahaM iSava kumaar ‘iSava’ ApnaI baoTI ko saaqa Aae. ]sako baad pMkja isaMh ivaYT.vahIM mauJao khanaIkar hIralaala naagar BaI imalao. Gar maoM ikSana kI hOisayat ka BaI pta calaa. jaba sao yaadva kao svaasqya ko baaro maoM ja,ra j,yaada Qyaana rKnao kI ihdayat Da^@TraoM nao dI hO tba sao ikSana ]naka ‘duSmana ‘hao gayaa h. Saraba vagaOrh pInao pr ]saka lagaayaa p`itbaMQa hO. ikSana ]sa Gar ka naaOkr tao kt[- nahIM hO . vah yaadva ka eosaa SauBaicantk hO jaao baoTo BaI baap ko ilae nahIM hao pat. ]sakI ]pisqait sao Gabarato hue ]nhoM khto k[- baar saunaa hO ik yah sabakuC mannaU kao bata dogaa. yaadva AaOr mannaUjaI ko baaro maoM matBaodaoM AaOr Alagaava ko baaro maoM svaad laonao vaalaaoM kao saaocanaa caaihe ik jaao AadmaI kovala [sa Dr sao hI AQamara hao jaata hO ik mannaUjaI jaana jaaeMgaI ¸ ]nhoM yah BaI saaocanaa caaihe ik irStaoM maoM namak bacaa huAa hO , , , ,[sa namak kao bacaae rKnao ka ija,mmaa Aba daonaaoM pr hO. [-Svar iË`yaaSaIla AaOr laMbaI ija,ndigayaaM bahuQaa bahutaoM kao nahIM dota‚ [sa jaaoD,o kao imalaI h. [nhoM kaya,do sao jaInaa caaihe. yah klaakar jaaoD,a hO‚  daonaaoM ko kd ¸ Aadmakd hOM , , ,ifr @yaa proSaanaI hO laaogaaoM kao AaOr [na daonaaoM kao Æ

sana\ 1999 jaulaa[- kI baat hO. Saayad 11 jaulaa[-. maOM saubah ja,ldI ]za‚ idna maoM AaOr Saama kao Saraba pI qaI. yaadva ko Gar maoM hI. dbao paMvaaoM ]sa kmaro maoM phuMcaa ijasamao raoSanaI qaI. va@,t yahI kao[- paMca bajao ka rha haogaa. maOMnao doKa ik yaadva ilaKnao ko Tobala pr pUrI tnmayata sao DUbao hOM.bahut pasa phuMcanao pr hI ]nhaoMnao maorI inakTta kao mahsaUsaa. ]sa samaya maOMnao ]nako pasa baOzkr kovala ]nako pairvaairk jaIvana ko baaro maoM hI pUCa AaOr ]nhaoMnao jaao kha yaid maorI smaRit dgaa na do tao vah yah qaa ¸ “ kRYNa ibaharI¸ mannaU sao maoro saMbaMQa Kraba nahIM hOM , , , ,hma daonaaoM nao imalakr Alaga rhnao ka fOsalaa tao ilayaa hO laoikna ek–dUsaro kI kizna isqaityaaoM maoM ek–dUsaro sao mauMh maaoD, laonaa ]samaoM Saaimala nahIM hO , , , ,jaba maOM Asptala maoM BatI- qaa tao vah barabar maoro pasa banaI rhI , , ,jaao duinayaa samaJatI hO vah baat nahIM hO , , ,” maoro mana maoM p`Sna qaa ik duinayaa ga,lat @yaaoM samaJatI hO Æ Aap maaOka @yaaoM doto hOM Æ

]sa saubah yaadva nao ivastar sao Apnao pairvaairk jaIvana ko baaro maoM batayaa. ]sa va@,t vao gaMBaIr qa.zhakaoM maoM sabakuC ]D,a donao vaalaa [nasaana vahaM nahIM qaa. maOM dao idna AaOr AaOr ek rat yaadva ko Gar maoM rha. Agalao idna ]nhaoMnao kha ik vao Saama kao iksaI pUva- inaQaa-irt kayaË`ma ko karNa dor sao AaeMgao , , ,maOMnao ]nasao kha ik kao[- baat nahIM , maOM vah samaya GaUmato–Gaamato kaT laUMgaa laoikna ]nhoM maoro rat ko Kanao kI icanta qaI , maOMnao ]saka BaI inadana bata idyaa ik idllaI maoM Kanaa Kanao kI kao[- samasyaa iksaI ko ilae nahIM hO yaid kao[- Kanaa caaho , , ,

idna–Bar idllaI maoM Apnao saaihi%yak ima~aoM AaOr piricataoM sao imalanao ko baad Saama kao krIba Aaz bajao jaba maOM laaOTa tao maOMnao ]nako FlaOT ko pasa ek dixaNa BaartIya rostraM maoM Kanaa Ka ilayaa AaOr ifr ]nako FlaOT ko saamanao saava-jainak ]Vana maoM baOzkr ]nakI p`tIxaa krnao lagaa. halaaMik ibanaa Saraba ipe rat ka Kanaa mauJao Aip`ya lagaa qaa. naaO bajanao sao phlao hI yaadva laaOT Aae‚ maOM tao saamanao hI baOza qaa ]zkr pUCa¸ “Aap tao dor sao Aanao vaalao qao , , ,Æ”
“mauJao tumharI icanta qaI , , ,Kanaa Ka ilayaa yaa , , ,Æ”
maOMnao batayaa ik kuC dor phlao Ka ilayaa , , ,

yaadva nao Apnao pUva-inaQaa-irt kaya-k`ma kao inarst kr idyaa qaa , , ,
Gar Aae ek Aitiqa ko p`it ]naka yah dRiYTkaoNa @yaa batata hO¸ yah ]nako AalaaocakaoM yaa inandkaoM kao tya krnaa caaihe. jaao yah ilaKto hOM ik yaadva ikSana kI raoiTyaaM iganato hOM‚ iDsgaisTMga , , , ,baad maoM maOMnao khIM yah saunaa BaI AaOr pZ,a BaI ik yaadva Apnao FlaOT maoM iksaI kI BaI ]pisqait sao proSaana hao jaato hOM‚ [tnaa hI nahIM¸ vah iksaI ko pdcaap kI Aavaaja, sao BaI Apnao Gar maoM svayaM ko ilae ek baaQaa mahsaUsa krto hOM. mauJao vah saba sauna AaOr pZ,kr Apnao A&ana pr KIJa hu[- ik yah saba mauJao ]nako saaqa zhrnao sao phlao jaananaa caaihe qaa. maOM iksaI haoTola maoM BaI tao zhr sakta hUM laoikna jaao hao cauka hO ]sao imaTayaa tao nahIM jaa sakta. ek baat AaOr , , ,ik, , , , , yaid kBaI BaivaYya maoM mauJao yaadva ko FlaOT pr zhrnaa pD,a tao maOM iJaJakUMgaa nahIM , , , maOM Apnao irStaoM kI ja,maIna phcaanata hUM , , ,  , yaadva ko saaqa maoro irSto caUityaapo ko nahIM hOM .

Aaomaa Samaa- Wara ilayaa gayaa ]naka saaxaa%kar ]sa saubah maorI ]nakI lambaI baatcaIt ko bahut baad maoM Aayaa AaOr vah BaI ivavaaidt huAa.‘vat-maana saaih%ya’ maoM yaadva ka laoK haonaaÀ saaonaa , , ,Cpa tao ek thlaka barpa hao gayaa , , , hnaumaana ko baaro maoM ]nhaoMnao kuC ilaKa tao hMgaamaa hao gayaa , , daonaaoM laoK saMdBa- sao kaTkr pZ,o ¸AaOr samaJao gae , , , ,

maOMnao hnaumaana vaalao laoK pr jaba ‘baIca bahsa maoM’ ek naja,iryaa ilaKa tao k[- laoKkaoM nao mauJasao vyai@tgat maulaakataoM maoM pUCa ¸“ rajaond` yaadva sao bahut p`Baaivat idKto hao , , , ]naka bacaava kr rho hao Æ” ]nhoM nahIM maalaUma ik maOM duinayaa maoM iksaI BaI laoKk sao kt[- p`Baaivat nahIM hUM  , , , AaOr¸ maOM rajaond` yaadva ka bacaava @yaa k$Mgaa , , ,Æ ]nhoM kba sao maoro bacaava kI ja,$rt pD,nao lagaI , , ,Æ

‘hMsa’ ko dF,tr maoM maorI maulaakat kmalaa p`saad¸ maO~oyaI puYpa¸ vaIrond` jaOna ¸ Aca-naa vamaa-¸ p`Baa dIixat ¸ SaIbaa ¸ cand` ikSaaor jayasavaala ¸ mahuAa maaMJaI ¸ ivaYNau naagar yaa ik Kro ¸ Arivand jaOna¸ Aaomaa Samaa- ¸kivata¸ rakoSa ibaharI ¸ mauSar-f Aalama ja,aOkI ¸ mahoSa dp-Na ¸[bbaar rbbaI ¸ lata Samaa- ko Alaavaa na jaanao iktnao nayao–puranaaoM sao maulaakat hu[- hO , [sako baahr ko pirdRSya maoM jahaM yaadva mauJao lao gae hOM vahaM maak- TulaI¸ naamavar isaMh ¸ kodar naaqa isaMh¸ ASaaok baajapoyaI ¸ maMgalaoSa Dbarala ¸ dovaond` raja ‘AMkur’ ¸ p`Baa Kotana ¸ Anaaimaka ¸ maQau ikSvar ko Alaavaa saOkD,aoM laaogaaoM kao doK saka.k[- saaih%yakaraoM sao pircaya BaI huAa. jaba BaI maOM idllaI phuMcata hUM tao ]nakI kaoiSaSa haotI hO ik maOM ]nako ]na kaya-ËmaaoM maoM ja,$r saaqa rhUM ijanamaoM idllaI AaOr baahr ko saaih%yakar Aa rho ha. maorI maja,baUrI yah hO ik maOM saala maoM kovala dao mahInao hI Baart maoM rhta hUM AaOr ]samaoM kovala idllaI maoM rh saknaa saMBava nahIM haota.

yaadva ko Alaavaa Anya bahut sao SauBaicantk jaanato hOM ik faoTaoga`a^fI maora SaaOk hO. hr baar yaadva yah pUCnaa nahIM BaUlato¸ “Apnaa kOmara laae hao na , , ,Æ”

maorI bahut–saI Ap`kaiSat khainayaaM yaadva nao pZ,I ja,$r hO laoikna kBaI ]nhaoMnao mauJao p`maaoT nahIM ikyaa.vaI ,esa ,esa , DI , ka^laoja, ko p`aofosar Da^ rmaoSa d%t Samaa- ko Alaavaa mauJao ija,ndgaI maoM saaih%ya ko xao~ maoM p`maaoT krnao ka kama Da^ , ramajanma rama Samaa- ko Alaavaa iksaI AaOr nao kBaI nahIM ikyaa. maorI phlaI khanaI jaao ‘dOinak jaagarNa’ AK,baar maoM CpI vah Da^0 rmaoSa Samaa- jaI ko idSaa inado-Sa ka pirNaama qaI.]nhaoMnao mauJao ‘jaagarNa’ sao p`kaiSat haonao vaalaI pi~ka ko saMpadk EaI SaMBaUr%na i~pazI ko pasa Baojaa. maOM ]nhoM dao khainayaaM do Aayaa‚ ]nhaoMnao khanaI jaagarNa ko saaPtaihk piriSaYT ka saMpadna krnao vaalao EaI ivaYNau i~pazI kao dIM‚ ]nhaoMnao maorI khanaI ‘ApraQa’ SaIYa-k sao p`kaiSat kI. maorI khainayaaM jahaM khIM BaI CpI hOM ¸ isafairSa pr nahIM CpIM . maOMnao saunaa hO ik yaadva nao k[- laoKkaoM kI khainayaaM svayaM na Cap saknao kI Avasqaa maoM strIya pi~kaAaoM ko saMpadkaoM kao dI hOM AaOr khainayaaM CpI BaI hOM . maoro saaqa eosaa kBaI nahIM huAa.maooro k[- baar khnao pr ]nhaoMnao maoro phlao khanaI–saMga`h ‘dao AaOrtoM’ ka blava- ilaKa , ‘hMsa’ ko dF,tr maoM mauJao iksaI sao pircaya krato hue yaadva yah khnaa nahIM BaUlato ¸ “ yao kRYNa ibaharI hOM , , ,”

dUsara vyai@t mauMh Kaolata hO ¸ “AbaUQaabaI vaalao , , ,Æ”
“ haMM¸ vahI , , ,maOMnao [nakI bahut AcCI khainayaaM ‘hMsa’ maoM CapI hOM , , ,baD,I ASlaIla khainayaaM ilaKto hOM , , ,” ]sako baad ek zhaka fUTta h
O . ja,aihr hO ik zhakaoM maoM yaadva ka svar sabasao }Mcaa haota hO . mauJao kt[- Aapi%t nahIM hO ik yaadva maora pircaya [sa trh @yaaoM krato hOM , , ,@yaaoMik maOM jaanata hUM AaOr yaadva BaI tqaa vahaM ]pisqat saBaI ik khanaI yaa tao AcCI haotI hO yaa baurI , , , ,

ipClao vaYa- mauJao idllaI maoM Apnao baD,o baoTo AnauBava ka naama ilaKanao AaOr ]sako rhnao kI vyavasqaa krnao ko ilae lagaBaga ek mahInao $knaa pD,a. ]sako p`itSat kma qao. ]sa AaQaar pr kao[- ka^laoja imalanaa mauiSkla qaa. laoikna maoro ima~ jaI ,DI , EaIvaastva nao AnauBava ko eDimaSana kao ApnaI p`itYza ka ivaYaya banaa ilayaa qaa . Anau ko pasa ek AcCo eoiqalaIT haonao ko jaao p`maaNa–p~ qao ]naka bala bahut baD,a qaa. vah laaMga jamp¸ ha[- jamp AaOr iT/pla jamp maoM Apnao Aayau–vaga- maoM p`qama sqaana pa cauka qaa. baaskoT baa^la AaOr tOrakI maoM BaI ]sao Plaosa imalaI hu[- qaI . sToja, pr kaya-Ë`ma kMipyar krnao ka AnauBava ]sako pasa qaa. [sako Alaavaa skUla maoM vah Apnao ha]sa ka kOPTona rh cauka qaa. yao saBaI ]sako Apnao dma pr Aija-t vao yaaogyataeM qaIM ijanamaoM maora yaa iksaI AaOr ka kao[- yaaogadana nahIM qaa. maoro ima~ jaI ,DI , tao ]sako eDimaSana ko ilae eD,I sao caaoTI tk ka ja,aor lagaa hI rho qao magar maOMnao yaadva kao BaI proSaana doKa. jaba BaI maOM ‘hMsa’ ko dF,tr laaOTta ]naka phlaa savaala haota ik @yaa huAa Æ ifr ]nhaoMnao ek idna mauJasao kha ik [sa maamalao maoM kuC na kr panao sao ]nhoM ‘igalT’ fIla hao rha hO. k[- faona ]nhaoMnao ike qa. maOM naama BaUla rha hUM. ijasapr ]nhoM bahut Baraosaa qaa vah laD,ka ]na idnaaoM ApnaI SaadI ko isalaisalao maoM ibahar gayaa qaa. maOMnao yaadva sao kBaI kuC kha nahIM. kBaI–kBaI yah BaI lagata ik yah AadmaI ijasao idllaI ka saara p`Saasana jaanata hO¸ ek eoDimaSana BaI nahIM kra sakta yaa caahta hI nahIM h. maOMnao kBaI yaadva sao kuC nahIM kha‚ laoikna saaocata ja,$r rha. ek str pr phuMcakr mauJao lagaa ik sacamauca vao jaao kr sakto qao ¸ kr rho qao. maOM lagaBaga ek mahInaa idllaI maoM rha AaOr p`aya: raoja hI ‘hMsa’ ko dF,tr maoM daophr ko baad ka va@,t gauja,ara ,daophr ka Kanaa BaI vahIM Kata qaa. hr idna @yaa p`gait hu[- yah batanaa pD,ta qaa.‘hMsa’ ko dF,tr maoM laaogaaoM ka Aanaa–jaanaa lagaa rhta hO. ek baOzknaumaa maahaOla haota hO‚bahsaoM haotI hOM.na[- sao na[- iktaba pr cacaa- AaOr iksaI na iksaI Aayaaojana kI yaaojanaa ko p`a$p pr baat AaOr baataoM ko daOrana jaanao ikna janmaaoM ko saMsmarNa.saba xaopk kI trh. yaadva laaogaaoM kao KUba saunato hOM AaOr KUba saunaato hOM.jaba Anau ka naama ilaK gayaa AaOr ]nhaoMnao mauJao safla doKa tao KuSa haokr baaolao ¸ “ ek iklaa ftoh kr ilayaa tumanao , , ,AcCa bataAao¸ vah rhogaa khaM , , , ,Æ” yaadva kao yah icanta BaI qaI ¸ “ jaba tk kao[- vyavasqaa na hao , , ,tba tk khaM rhogaa , , ,Æ,”
maOMnao kha¸ “ jagah hO , , ,rh laogaa , , ,”
kuC khkr Apnao ima~ jaI ,DI , ka sammaana hI GaTa}Mgaa . ehsaana ka ]%tr SabdaoM maoM nahIM donaa caaihe. ]nhaoMnao jaao kuC AnauBava ka naama ilaKanao ko ilae ikyaa AaOr saha ]sako ilae maoro pasa Sabd nahIM hOM , , , ,

yaadva kao ivavaadaoM maoM¸ cacaa- maoM banao rhnao ka SaaOk hO . yah Aaraop BaI vahI lagaato hOM jaao iksaI ivavaad kao janma nahIM do pato .mauJao AaScaya- haogaa Agar kao[- kho ik vah cacaa- maoM rhnaa nahIM caahta. kaOna hO jaao maihlaaAaoM ka saaqa nahIM caahta Æ Apnao Aasa–pasa BaID, nahIM caahtaÆ iktnaI navaaoidt laoiKkaeM haoMgaI jaao yaadva sao imalanaa nahIM caahtIM Æ nae laoKk iktnao hOM jaao ]nasao dUr rhnaa caahto hOM Æ haM¸ sqaaipt hue k[- laoKkaoM kao jaanata hUM jaao Aba [sa kuNza sao pIiD,t hOM ik ‘hMsa’ maoM ]nakI rcanaaeM na Capkr yaadva na jaanao iksa janma ka badlaa inakala rho hOM.

maOMnao Sau$ maoM hI ek vaa@ya ilaKa hO ik iksaI kao pUra–pUra nahIM jaanaa jaa sakta.  svayaM kao BaI AadmaI iktnaa jaana pata hO Æ laoikna ijatnaa jaana payaa hUM vah [tnaa khnao ka AiQakar tao dota hO ik yaadva hmaoSaa iË`yaaSaIla rhnao vaalao ]sa vyai@t%va ka naama hO jaao AQyayanaSaIla¸ ima~–ip`ya AaOr ApnaI baobaak raya donao ko maamalao maoM Apnao samakalaInaaoM maoM sabasao Aagao hO ,laaoga ]sao Klanaayak khoM yaa kuC AaOr , , , ,

@yaa fk- pD,ta hO , , ,

 

  kRYNa ibaharI
maaca-
1‚ 2005

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